Monday, January 20, 2014,

I don't know did I made the right decision. Did I made the decision impulsively? Did I think through properly before making it?


看到人家開心, 心里突然間覺得很空虛很悲傷. 也不知道為什麼. 我彷彿不屬於這個世界. 我心里真的很亂. 
我可以叫人怎麼樣快樂, 自己卻做不到.


對大家來說, 我是個沒煩惱, 快樂, 樂觀, 一直笑著, 會幫助別人的人.
但我很像不是. 沒人能看見我內心深處的悲傷. 我沒你們想像中那麼好. 

對..! 人家快樂就好.. =)

3:45 AM

Wednesday, February 27, 2013,


I am scared.

Very scared.


4:58 AM

Saturday, February 16, 2013,

I really lost it.

Why is he running away.?

2:40 AM

Thursday, February 14, 2013,

It's gonna repeat itself again..!

No dear.. No sweet goodnight.. No wake up msgg...

This is not good. =\

I don't like it.! I really don't like it..!
Why????? I am so afraid. Afraid of losing him so much.. It may be the last v day dinner with him I dunno.. But it seem like it.. So much like it... So much..

4:31 AM

Saturday, January 12, 2013,

I'm lost again... Holding on to it...

I think that I'm thinking too much.

Coz I feel that the spark is gone. I want I back so badly. I don't want the honeymoon just end like that.

Dear... Hope you treat me better and sweeter. I've been trying very hard to make things sweet for us, but I nv see any from you. =( maybe I'm insensitive to the things u did for me..

I'm very selfish I know.. Always think how much I done for you, this and that. That's why I'm blinded. I want to hav my sweet dear dear back really.. I don't know why.. Somehow I thot, I lost you. =\

4:00 AM

Tuesday, December 11, 2012,


I love you.

I hope i can sing for you everynight before you sleep.

I'm so afraid of losing you again. So afraid.

Everyday seem to get more dull.. I always try to spice it up when I'm meeting you. I don't want you to get bored. I want you to be happy and not just "it another day out".

I wish that I can buy whatever you want from the stores. I really wish that when i buy it for you, you will be greatful, love me even more. But I don't want this to be, I buy for you, then you love me. I want it coming from you.

You seem cold today, maybe you are tired. Hope that we last. And last.

I love you...


1:46 AM

Thursday, November 22, 2012,

Sorry... But I really can't lose u.. =/

I need you. To be here by my side..

12:57 AM