lets start from friday.

went out in the morning to cck cemetery to pray respect to the ancestors. then went to beach road for buffet. and met jonathan for lunch. after that, went wellness house to ban gong.. reached home. had a sleepless night. was thinking bout how to break the ice between me and someone. was also thinking bout nic prob. was think bout kel's pms and stuff. was also thinking bout vin's emoness. also worrying bout my grandma that fell on her butt.

sat, was at home. thinking thru all those things above. skip breakfast, skip lunch and had only a little dinner. things was not resolved. =/

sun, went to meet wellness, briano and vincent to jurong for chanting like at 11am. reach back home at 9pm. met benji at 9.30pm, came home not too long, and went to meet esther. 2am plus. chat with fren till 3am. was downstairs and was accompanied by a cat that sticks to me so closely till 4am. came home. accompany my granny. chat with her. massage her cold icy hands. prepare hot water for her to wipe herself, made drinks and prepared some food for her. 10am, jus brought her to see chinese medicine doctor.. finally she's slping. but she will wake up and need ppl by the side. =/

its so hurtful to see love ones getting hurt, emotionally or phyciscally. =(
hope everyone is really fine. really..

sometimes i just wonder.. i am jus another bridge to let someone step on and get over.

i dun wanna doubt u.. i dun want to. =(

its been 2 weeks... i really know nothing bout you. i know ur name, i know where u study, i know u gotta work. but.. the other things.. I KNOW NUTS~! seriously i know nothing at all..

i can dunno ur where about after 3.30pm on weekdays. i can dunno totally where u r during weekends, if i didnt ask. u wont tell me where u are.. i can stand ur pms and attitude. i can understand that u didnt hav enough slp. i can even not slp to stay up till morning, to wait for u to be at sch, then ask u things. but u nv tell me..

i ask bout ur past, u say i am crazy. i ask bout ur dream, u brushed me off. i said u didnt care for me, u ask for a break up...

i'm always so afraid to tell u things, even small little things, like what kinda of ppl i met, what i bought and things like that. coz, i jus dun wanna disturb u with small little things, and also scared that u will jus say, "tell me for wat". =(

2 weeks is not long, 2 weeks is not very short either. i dun wanna like where u go, i got spy following u. checking on someone is very easy for me. i dun wanna do that. i jus really want u to tell me things willingly.

everyday i think of u. everynight i think of u. where ever i go, i think of u.. even my frens think that i'm crazy. you are all over my mind.

today, saw ur post on facebook.. to know that u r still thinking of the past, it do hurt me a little. and i was expecting a sms from u yesterday, and yet, u r thinkin of the past. =( saddened.

yesterday, a "cb!" from u. its really deverstating. i nv expect my date to scold me. seriously. jus wanting to know where are u going, u wont tell me. =(

ppl say, i had so much that i can jus blow up, but i didnt. they ask why, this isnt like what i am. what to do, i dun wanna let things turns sour, and i;m afraid of losing someone again. =(

i think you'll nv notice my blog... and i dunno how u much u do really care. but... seriously, i do hope, we do work out right. =/

take care... <3

Why these things gotta happen~? =(

I told you already...! i said so many times! time and time i reminded you not to commit to this kind of things... you cant you just listen.. =(

its really very heartbreaking... i am vex and yet very very sad. seeing you like that, and can't help a thing. really, it really put me in a state where i am really speechless, helpless. seriously, i'm disappointed, not with you, but with myself.

i seriously dun want anything to happen to you, you know... i really dun want =(
i dun want.

Its been like 4 days.

everyday will be worrying, if i do this, if i do that, will he get upset, will he don't like it, will he be angry. each and everyday.

i'm not saying that i am tired of all these things. i just want someone there, someone to really care for me. is he the one?

someone told me.. "omg, jojo leh.. end up like someone like that, need to see ppl face to do things." i was like, haiz.. then wat to do. do i really need him? i dunno leh.

this is so irritating. =/

=D

Saturday was great. Sunday was not.

friday night. played mahjong at home with benji, xiao kel, stanley. then stanley left, sebas ng came. followed my pheobe and zaus.

then played till morning.. sebas slept at the living room till 12pm saturday and left.
i was out around 7am to get ingredians for the potato salad for the picnic at Marina Barrage.

then ya.. went to marina barrage and reach there at 4.30pm. so ya.. met up with alice + daniel, baoyu + hong, priscillia + boyfriend (forgotten wat name), yongliang + joey, trisha, joonhui, huichuan. so ya.. picnic was to celebrate alice and huichuan birthday.

everything ended at 8pm. so ya.. went to met up with Ernest. then ya.. went to PLAY after his dinner. and was a sweet saturday night till sunday morning..

SLEPT and ended up having sore throat and slight fever i think, coz i cant get up till today morning.. =.=

sorry to those calls i didnt answer...

take care all.. <3

yesh~! new pics. =D





cute bo? muahahaha...