sudenly~ i feel that, it is just pointless jus to bored over some stuffs that you can't get hold or get control of...

if it doesn't meant to be yours, then forget it. jus let it go and continue with ur life. i jus thot that, i think i should leave that circle as soon as possible, close all doors behind me and never to be seen again. when seen, i am still me, but will be the usual me.

things jus get too complicated behind this door. if someone is to lead me, i don mind walking thru that door. but, unfortunately, sadly, no one actually did guild me thru. i sturggled, i waited, i reject, i loved. i did what i can but things jus don work out the way you want it to be.

ever thot of trying harder and try eveb harder. but sometime, for someone especially like me, who is those that don like to see unknown, i wont continue to wait. waiting is jus too hatic for me. let me regain myself. let me be what i am. it may be the last time you may be seeing me, i may be there when ya need me but things are jus not the same anymore.

this is not a threat, this is not a note for you to go wadever. it is jus a voice of someone really tired already. "hope ya will understand", no i dont. i really dont. maybe i complicate myself, maybe i think too much, maybe i jus have to jus lay down and jus take a nap.

reject, hurt, betray, lost, complicate, complex, sad. wanna have a battle with me? i will get rid of ya all~ i hope i can. a hope for a change...

haha~ woah~ let me be i wants to be gets to be, ur suga give mama some suga mama, suga mama mama i'm urs... suga mama.... hahaa~ nice song ya know. by beyonce.

i think i am starting to be me agian i gues.. muahaha... heehee.. i am back. muacks.