whY will it turn out this way~?

i don wan like that... people are crying le, people are scare le, people cant handle things le... things are really starting out of hand le...

it starts from me... ME~!

i jus cant understand, why cant people jus be truthful to people. why must twist the information given?

is it becoz if scare hurting people? is it becoz u jus wanna be plastic? is it jus becoz u don wanna involve? WAT IS IT~?

i hear poeple crying. i hear people say that they are scare..... i am so afraid that things will happened... i cant do anything... really... if things are started from me~ i will clear things out, really....
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Why am i thinking of him~?

"I try to forget how much I want him here, Let my dreams slowly disappear. I cannot forget, let my emotions die, Oh I, I don't even want to try"

when i was scare, u was there~ but not now~ i tried to forget u, but small things kept remind me of your existance... i jus wan u here.

people can hate u, people say things bout u....i jus listen... but i cant accept the fact.

they say that i can get over it sooner or later... i want. but a few mths already... i cant...
why must i be in this state...~? i don want...

first time in my life, my heart is sharttered..... why must it be that person...~? i don understand.