Caring for people also do have a limit.

everything that everyone do, they have their reasons. jus that sometimes they didnt think deep enough into the problem...

hope things will really turn out fine. =/

When someone is tired and there's a lot to think, he tend to think too much. Or should i say, worry too much. =/

When you really work hard towards something, and people find fault in what ever you are trying to achieve, your moral go down and the heart is not there anymore. Yes, no doubt, it's good to have advice from people, but it will be a moral breakdown for someone that don't have strong will power.

I don't wanna spoil the harmony in the place... i'll only blog it.

To this someone.. You may know things, but you dun know everything. Not that im saying that i know a lot, but STOP ACTING YOU KNOW EVERYTHING~!!! =(
It's very irritating to see you doing things you know.. Why dun u blame urself and see the fault in urself, but u put the blame on people faith and put someone to the blame.
Why can't u see the good in people and always see someone fault MORE than their good? People are here to help, they can choose to not help you know? DO YOU KNOW THAT? and they dun take your money to see your GRUMPY face.
I dun like it when you say something like that to me, "Why you ask some many people to come where they dun even provide any help?" with that fucked up face.
HELLO~!!! I NV ASK THEM COME TO HELP. i ask them to see see look look only, DO YOU KNOW THAT? and people do volenteer to help already u know? YOU DUN KNOW.
I told someone before, if you do gain power in there, that place wont be a place where a lot of people will come.
Actually you are just unprofessional. you only do what u think is right, and nv take into consideration of how other people look at us. COZ is US.. but u only put urself first.
I dun like your attitude... seriously no one owe u a living. but u make everyone seems that they owe u.
I am really very understanding that u r seriously alone here, but IT doesnt totally belongs to you. im not saying that you dun hv a part to play in there. you hv a very impt role there. but dun push things too hard... We dun like pressure, or maybe, I dun like pressure. and stop asking me nonsense. =(
You always say got anything, tell u in front of your face. problem is, YOU DUN LISTEN.

maybe someday u will see this.. maybe u know im refering to u, maybe u dun... but im very sad blogging this. seriously very sad.

Another thing.. im jealous. just simple jealous. why u got guildence from people, i dun? they treat you like SOLID GOLD, and im jus left there. someone did told me that, im trying too hard sometimes. maybe i should jus dun be jealous, and keep a cool mind. yesh, i should...

One more thing is that, there is jus too many groups of people in there. one wanna gain power, one wanna chase them out. i seriouly dunno what to do. =( really.. dunno...

I really hope that things will turn out well soon... am i worrying too much?
who can give me an answer?





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was a little pissed 12 hours ago... but things still turn out well i hope so..

woke up late.. had lunch. evening went for rehearsal and 12am, went prawning... and ya... am home now.

thinking thru.. i shouldn't make things difficult for him... coz, he's stress enough. i should jus let go and dun hold grudes. but... how could i forget?

things changed.. changed a lot. hope its better this way.

took this while prawning with frens...




goodnight everyone. <3

why things turn out this way? jealousy? i dunno.. seriously..

suppose to met up with a fren to discuss something and happily he will go off to meet his boy... but he called and cried on the phone. saying that he quarrel with his boy over small matters like not making decision and having last minute plans.

i dun really see the need for the boy to be aggitated. and also, there's nothing for my fren to cry about. i guess... for me to hav last minute plans for people dun really work well now a days. it's like not those times when people are free to roam about, or say go where ever they want. they have their commitment to keep and fulfill.. like i do hav also.

it's always the case where by, good deed dun get good return... i dunno... i'm so sick and tired of letting people go their way, let them do what ever they want, help them in any right or wrong. ended up, i get caught in a dilemma... or else, in some how or another, i get "biten" by people i helped or took care of before.

am i doing things wrongly? or am i trusting the wrong people? or is it just my life?

and also.. i dunno what i did or should i say, what i say to that person for him to relax and think so must is correct. or in the first place let him emo and get over and let he himself settle it? is it that i'm indirectly harming the person i once close with? seriously i dunno.. i talk good bout the close one, i get only scolding and blaming in return. for now, a wrongful thing the close one did, i told it to someone, i dunno what else will happen...

i was told that my EQ is zero today.. by some random guy. i seriouly think that i do have zero EQ. haha.. what a joke. apart of being laughing off, that i really have zero EQ, i am sad thinking i hv zero EQ. =/

What i want is only all of you all to be happy. No matter things goes right or it does go wrong, be happy with the things you all did. be open.. have a open mind.. but i guess.. on one around me is happy... i nv got sad of things, i nv really give up on anything before. what i can do for the people around me, i do.

i always think that, is my job to make them happy. be it chanting, be it doing show, be it grooming of dogs, or be it normal talking to people, i always take a part to think, how can i make them jus smile and dun hav the gloom on the face...

i dun need recognision.. i dun need any thing in return. i only want everyone to be happy... i always pray to the above, wishing everyone to be healthy and happy.. and i really do hope so that the poeple around me are really happy.

i missed out a lot of frens.. coz i know, once something is done wrongly by me, people will only see the bad more than the side u did helped them. =(

i dun wish to see the gloom on people face... is part and parcel of life, but.. as all i could, i'll try to put a smile on people's face.

i shall stay happy also.. =) jia you.. but i dun think i'll do any nonsense anymore.. =/