why things turn out this way? jealousy? i dunno.. seriously..

suppose to met up with a fren to discuss something and happily he will go off to meet his boy... but he called and cried on the phone. saying that he quarrel with his boy over small matters like not making decision and having last minute plans.

i dun really see the need for the boy to be aggitated. and also, there's nothing for my fren to cry about. i guess... for me to hav last minute plans for people dun really work well now a days. it's like not those times when people are free to roam about, or say go where ever they want. they have their commitment to keep and fulfill.. like i do hav also.

it's always the case where by, good deed dun get good return... i dunno... i'm so sick and tired of letting people go their way, let them do what ever they want, help them in any right or wrong. ended up, i get caught in a dilemma... or else, in some how or another, i get "biten" by people i helped or took care of before.

am i doing things wrongly? or am i trusting the wrong people? or is it just my life?

and also.. i dunno what i did or should i say, what i say to that person for him to relax and think so must is correct. or in the first place let him emo and get over and let he himself settle it? is it that i'm indirectly harming the person i once close with? seriously i dunno.. i talk good bout the close one, i get only scolding and blaming in return. for now, a wrongful thing the close one did, i told it to someone, i dunno what else will happen...

i was told that my EQ is zero today.. by some random guy. i seriouly think that i do have zero EQ. haha.. what a joke. apart of being laughing off, that i really have zero EQ, i am sad thinking i hv zero EQ. =/

What i want is only all of you all to be happy. No matter things goes right or it does go wrong, be happy with the things you all did. be open.. have a open mind.. but i guess.. on one around me is happy... i nv got sad of things, i nv really give up on anything before. what i can do for the people around me, i do.

i always think that, is my job to make them happy. be it chanting, be it doing show, be it grooming of dogs, or be it normal talking to people, i always take a part to think, how can i make them jus smile and dun hav the gloom on the face...

i dun need recognision.. i dun need any thing in return. i only want everyone to be happy... i always pray to the above, wishing everyone to be healthy and happy.. and i really do hope so that the poeple around me are really happy.

i missed out a lot of frens.. coz i know, once something is done wrongly by me, people will only see the bad more than the side u did helped them. =(

i dun wish to see the gloom on people face... is part and parcel of life, but.. as all i could, i'll try to put a smile on people's face.

i shall stay happy also.. =) jia you.. but i dun think i'll do any nonsense anymore.. =/